5/11/2017 2 Comments blog #4 : leaning inI sit here on this plane thinking about how three weeks ago I would have never imagined that I’d be on this flight. That is so scary and so thrilling. I am proud of myself for spending a whole pay check for this oneway flight because it has the potential to change the whole course of my life.
I feel like people are too afraid to throw themselves in uncomfortable and unplanned situations. I have realised that in the discomfort I have the opportunity to grow and come to notice what really is important to me. I still feel like I am not on this plane right now because of how quickly this has all come together. It is strange feeling rather confident and completely open to the fact that I have no idea where I will be in one months time. Being at peace with the idea of going with the flow is something that I am not used to. If someone who has struggled with self esteem, confidence, anxiety and an overthinking mind aka me what is stopping you from doing what you feel you need to pursue? My thoughts and mind were my biggest issue. Now that I have overcome that negative energy I was creating, I feel equipped and prepared for this next chapter. So here I am. How ever many kilometres above land and sea, flipping out and dancing in my seat to ‘Spring Has Sprung’ by Skegss because I have done it. I have faced fear and spat on it because I no longer want to be scared of opportunity and the rest of my life. The past couple days I have spent in Launceston, Tasmania, hanging out with some positive and beautiful people who have encouraged the crap out of me. As much as all of that is nice, I know I am ready to step out on my own and discover what is outside of this state. It is fair to say that I am stoked about it all and I am leaning into the present and future.
2 Comments
31/10/2017 0 Comments BLOG #3 : ALONE IN A LOVED UP WORLDI have a secret for you. You don't have to be in a relationship to feel loved. I mean it! Surely there is more to the life of romance than finding your other half.
According to the media I find myself looking at, I as a woman am not beautiful unless I am wanted or people tell me so. Apparently men aren't men unless they are ripped, drinking beer and hooking up. Who the flip came up with that nonsense in the first place? I'd like to have multiple words to them. I believe that projecting self love to yourself before finding it through someone else is so vital. I also hold the idea that I have the ability to abolish any social currency I have in my life to the point where I don't need compliments or affirmation from anyone to feel accepted. The problem is this. Media and our personal want for human affection has made romance about finding 'The One'. Have you ever thought that for now, 'The One' is actually you? It should be about piecing ourselves together rather than finding our better half. If I had any advice for young people it would be to feel whole within yourself first instead of finding intimacy and affection to fill the gaps you have. I am not worried about being alone in a loved up world because quite frankly there is no need. I have myself, a vessel of self love that only needs herself. One day, I'm sure I'll welcome someone else to do the journey of life with me but until that I am content with being single and bold. 23/10/2017 0 Comments BLOG #2: groWIng pains.Choosing which path to take is always difficult. Especially when the one you know is right isn't the easiest option. I have been head on with decisions and choices the past little while and to be honest, it's been hard to choose what is best for me. In the midst of the situation I had to keep coming back to this; do I want to step forward into growth or step back into security and familiarity? Both seem pretty nice but one has the potential to propel me into something beyond what I can see. Seeking growth gives me purpose which is why I choose it. I choose to spend hours a week self evaluating and dreaming of what I could do in the next year. It has the power to push you the little bit you needed and step out into your next chapter but it won't happen straight away. Self growth is a lot like vertical growth, it takes time and it is gradual. Growing pains. I remember being the shortest person in my year level for over 5 years. I was the size of a year 4 student when I was in year 7! Then it happened. I started getting growing pains and eventually after a few years I finally got to a 'normal' height. Which brings me to this, self growth is something that can bring on some pain but it means your are growing. A part of self analysing is digging up the past and confronting it. It's seeing that you have some issues that need to be dealt with. In doing this you are actually going to find benefits for your future. Becoming fully healed from rough situations in life means to look at it directly and speak about it. It bloody hurts but I promise that over time it'll become easier. It's always going to be apart of your past but use it to shape you rather than allowing it to keep breaking you. I know for me, it takes more than just hope to be where I want to be, it takes action. I want to be in a mindset of seeking pattern and not potential. Let me explain. I could do my life and be like, ''oh yes, one day I'm going to do this and that", but if I never start actioning a pattern to reach my potential I'll never get there. You want to save $10,000 this year? Stop gambling. Stop buying $6 coffees everyday and put that money aside to being a pattern of saving. You want to be happy? Stop looking at your pain and doing nothing about it. Go seek help, do things that build you up. You want to be in a relationship? Stop hooking up with people every weekend. Work on loving yourself first before someone else does. Whatever that 'goal' is in your life, fully seek it. Each person has potential to grow but there has to be action behind the dream. I honestly would say out of everyone I know I am probably the most practically unready person for this one way ticket plan I've got going. Spending a large chunk of time on the mainland has been on my heart for one whole year. If it hasn't gone away then I believe I need to just go and test the waters, jump in and do it. I'll never feel completely financially stable if I keep looking at what I don't have. So I have chosen to look at what I do have. I have good health, just enough money to cover food and I have passion. With these combined I know I'll be just fine. 21/10/2017 0 Comments Blog #1: A one way ticketYet again I have spent a whole pay check on a last minute idea to fly somewhere. This time, it's a one way ticket.
This new chapter is simply for me to go and embrace unplanned adventure and visit some family and friends along the way. It might be uncomfortable because ya girl is financially unstable but I'm so fearless and excited for whatever is going to happen! Home is such a weird concept because yes, it is where your family is based but I feel like it's beyond that too. I have felt a sense of homeliness when I dance around in a field with glitter on my cheeks, just being completely me. Home is where you feel like you fully belong and I have begun to think that for me personally, my home IS me. I'm going to be in this body till Jesus is like, "Yo, Ry? Come chill up here'. The thought of being a vessel of belonging eventually strung across to this concept: What if I travel by myself to places I appreciate and project self love? How could this end up looking like for future Ry? Well, ideally I believe I can abolish all social currency in my life to the point where I do not need a persons approval or opinion to feel accepted and loved. This would be because I have completely excepted who I am and have learnt to love being me. What if I can get to a mental space where I view myself as a beautiful, powerful and visionary being without one compliment from someone? That would be awesome, so I'm going to journey that and see what happens. To cut it short, my objective for this time away is to project self love and to become a major source of positivity within myself. I am going to do this journey with God so that is pivotal and not temporary. Doing that He can heal whatever needs to be healed in my life and it'll never return and then I can move onto my next phase of looking for a location to move into. The Mainland or Tassie, who knows! I guess it'll figure itself out! Things tend to slip into place just when it's needed which I think is beautiful. So here is to that one way flight, please be the start of something great. |
|